The other clerks still don't know I'm a Christian - somehow I haven't been able to mention it without it being too random. I'd prefer that it's known, so people can see it's a part of me, but at the moment, without that identity, I'm feeling like I'm not being true to myself. You know, laughing at rude jokes, etc. Oh well. I guess now that I'm in a big nasty law firm (joke) there's a realisation that I won't have the security of being in ACES anymore, and that holding fast to my faith and not compromising my values might become difficult, even if it's something small like swearing or gossiping. But I trust that God is good and will help me through this initial tricky phase, if I just rely on Him.
- I'm feeling:
tired
So many things to do. Whinge whinge whinge. >< Seems like lately I’ve been spending too much time staring into space, clicking through Facebook, and playing mindless computer games to do any sort of independent thinking. I don’t have interesting opinions on politics, current affairs, tv shows, or sports to blog about.
Well, last week I saw three movies, so that was something. Up 3D was brilliant – heart-warming story and loveable characters, though the pacing was a little off in the second half. But I loved the dog mannerisms (“Squirrel!”) and the animation was beautiful. Speaking of beautiful, Ponyo also blew me away. Miyasaki is a genius. But there are no expensive 3D effects, just intricate hand-drawn cells and lush watercolours – all the better, I say. The story was whimsical, fantastical, and captivating from the very first scene. Not as epic as Spirited Away – more similar to My Neighbour Totoro, I think.
Also saw Mao’s Last Dancer the second time (this time with Mum), and it was just as enjoyable this time. Again and again I’m just fascinated and amazed at that whole period of China’s history – the way the propaganda of the Communist Party infiltrated the entire country (mind you, they still sort of do.)
Random scenes that come to mind (heavily paraphrased)
1. Students and teachers in a broken down classroom, late 1970s
Teachers: thanks to the teachings of our glorious party we are enjoying unprecedented wealth and prosperity.
Students: so which are the poorest countries in the world right now?
Teachers: the imperialist and capitalist countries, of course. Their days are filled with darkness.
2. Madam Mao is the special guest at the school’s ballet performance
Madam Mao: it’s not too bad, but where is your revolutionary thinking?
Later, the entire ballet is re-worked with the performers donning military gear and twirling around while carrying guns. Just completely absurd, but of course such was the entertainment of the day for my parents. Unbelievable.
- I'm feeling:
contemplative - I'm listening to:Born for This - Paramore
Was forced to download the new MSN. Oops, I meant “Windows Live Messenger”. Dislike all the changes! However, this Windows Live Writer program is pretty nifty – I don’t have to visit the LiveJournal website anymore to make a post. Not that I’ve made many posts recently … It’s probably time for an overhaul, maybe I should move to the more sophisticated WordPress or Blogger websites. Or maybe I should go back to studying. Hmm, not a pleasant proposition.
- I'm feeling:
chipper - I'm listening to:Blah Blah - Kate Miller-Heidke
It was great to hear from you! I am always pleased when little boys take the time to write me letters. I have shown your letter to Mrs Claus and all the reindeers. Rudolph says you have nice handwriting. I am sure that you will get even better with practice! Be sure to always practice your handwriting, so that everyone – especially an old man like me – can easily read it!
No, I didn't tie rockets to my sleigh during Christmas, because that could set my sleigh on fire! But rest assured, I was able to visit all the good little children around the globe and deliver their presents on time. I hope you liked your present. How did you know that I use the post office for houses without chimneys? That is supposed to be my best kept secret! Well, I hope I can trust you to keep this secret for me?
I hope you enjoyed your trip to China! I saw that it didn’t snow in Lu'an or Hefei, but never mind, I am sure you will see it again next time you visit. Snow is not that great anyway. Here at the North Pole it snows all the time, and we have to keep warm by wearing thick clothing and huddling by the fireplace. You should feel lucky to be in sunny Sydney!
That is great news about the magazine you made! Your parents must be very proud of you. Maybe you will get a high distinction for English this year!
I really liked your Christmas stamp designs. Have you considered designing stamps as a career when you grow up? Maybe you can even make your own designs for your Christmas cards this year.
Well, I have to go now – we have plenty of toys (and chocolates) to make in time for Christmas 2009! I hope you will continue to be a good boy and listen to your parents. Remember, I know when you've been bad or good – so be good for goodness sake!
Have a happy new year,
Santa
- I'm feeling:
accomplished
"You need to pick a representative, a reasonable person from that class or segment. Not the average moron in a hurry."
"Section 52 of the Trades and Practices Act is not the Starlight Foundation. We don't make hopes and dreams come true."
"A lot of businesses think exclusion clauses are like aspirin or holy water – take some when you're in trouble and all the badness goes away."
Intermediate Macroeconomics lecturer:"Also, After a careful consideration, I have decided not to return your essays for the following reasons.
3. Seeing many red marks can be very unpleasant.
4. You may already be sick of seeing unidentifiable words written by your GP.
6. Many students did not provide the correct information about their Stream and tutorial time. It is then impossible to identify whose reports should be returned when and where. It is also very inefficient. The opportunity costs are very large."
Nice to know that she wanted to save us from unpleasantness. =P
- I'm feeling:
amused
It's been a while. Because I'm writing a post, we know it's getting to that stage in the semester again. Time to procrastinate and while the time away doing nothing. Time to sit before the computer for hours, and produce not a single iota of work. Not one word of that Torts and Contracts II 3000-word assignment, due in four days. Not a drop of preparation for the Mergers & Acquisitions mid-semester exam, here in five days.
Sometimes life feels like it's grinded to a halt. I feel like quoting bittersweet lyrics.
- I'm feeling:
stressed - I'm listening to:Stepping Stone - Duffy
I'm liking myself less and less these days. I'm blunt and I seem to delight in awkward situations.
I'll think to myself, "what's the most inappropriate thing I can say here?" And then I'll say it, just to see if I mind the increased awkwardness. Usually I don't, and then afterwards I feel slightly shocked at myself.
I'm sorry if I've been blunt or hurt you, any one of you, these past weeks.
Okay, now I'm going back to that assignment, and I'm going to think happy happy thoughts!
- I'm feeling:
slightly panicked - I'm listening to:Everything - Michael Bublé
My excuse? Probably because uni wasn't on, so I didn't need to procrastinate. I spent my days at the office and my evenings in front of the tv. No readings or assignments to evade. Now, two weeks into uni, it's a different story.
- I'm feeling:
lazy
- I'm feeling:
angry
Okay, it was because of Grey's Anatomy, and no, before you start snickering, it wasn't because of the unresolved drama between Meredith and Derek ... It was because people died. While others lived.
- I'm feeling:
sad
So. So.
I've just had one of those days. Like the bad end of a chick flick, or the uglier side of a train wreck. A funny, comical train wreck, actually.
- I'm feeling:
amused
Feeling rather peaceful ... despite facing imminent exam doom.
Oh well, I only need 63% in tomorrow's Criminal Law exam to get a distinction. Then again, it's going to be a super hard open-book exam. Corporate Finance is also going to be a killer, especially as it's worth 65% of the entire course. Business Statistics is ... meh. Business Strategy is, thankfully, far far away, worth only 40%, and I have six days to study for it. ^^
Hmmm ... last year I shared with you the weird and wonderful questions I found in my American microeconomics textbook. This year, I bring you ...
- I'm feeling:
amused - I'm listening to:Shela - Days
- I'm feeling:
contemplative - I'm listening to:Brandi Carlile - The Story (appropriately enough)
Next time I see myself on Facebook and MSN, I'm going to kick myself. And then I'll probably continue to while away the time, writing on metaphysical walls. In the meantime, I will like to write on a real wall -
Wanted: You.
Last seen: in my head.
- I'm feeling:
frustrated
- I'm feeling:
thoughtful
Tuesday: Finance midsemester exam (20%)
Wednesday: Criminal law assignment due (40%), Business Strategy midsemester exam (30%)
Thursday: Contracts law mooting
It's all Facebook's fault. And Spider Solitaire. And Jay Chou (<3). And chocolate bars and Muffins (facebook pet) and MSN. It's your fault too. Yes, you. You know who you are.
At times like this, it's so easy to slip into anxiety, to forget to just commit it all to God.
Okay, okay, I know it's my own fault. I have absolutely no willpower. But when I'm not studying, when I'm using the internet, I don't need to think.
EDIT: For those looking at this from your friends page, check out my new layout! The fruits of my procrastination.
- I'm feeling:
aggravated
Still haven't finished reading Deathly Hallows. So much I have to say (or squee) about it. Also watched OotP the Saturday of the week it came out, and must say it was fantastic.
Was away on camp last week. The Evangelical Union's Annual Conference, at Stanwell Tops (near Helensburg). A great five days, learning about the Resurrection. Apart from that, I also spent half an hour as an Egyptian mummy (wrapped in toilet paper), went on the 'Amazing Race', played frisbee and basketball and took part in a Bush Dance (exercise! me!).
- I'm at:Fisher Library computer labs (at uni)
- I'm feeling:
sad
- I'm feeling:
blank
How do you know when you're in love though? Is there a test you can take? Should it be making you happy or sad? Should you be willing to die for that person?
Exams next Monday (Accounting) and Friday (Finance), and then the Monday (Contracts) and Tuesday (Processes of Justice) after that. I should be stressed, but I'm so not! I can't wait for it all to end, and then I can be free. And then I'm off to get myself a pair of boots. ^ ^ Funny how I've been criticising the sweater-dress-leggings-and-boots look, while at the same time secretly envying those who can pull it off. But no, I'm going nowhere near a sweater-dress.
Question: what's a good pair of boots to buy? Should it be leather or suede? Black, brown, or blue? Slouchy, straight, cuffed, soft, or rigid? To the ladies on my tremendous friends list (haha), what do you like in a boot? What sort of boots do you own, and how do you wear them?
- I'm feeling:
sleep deprived
- I'm feeling:
sad - I'm listening to:Shadowfeet - Brooke Fraser
